Restoration

Half alive and half dead.... energetically speaking. Still in my slumber, I am beginning to stir. Can't get up quite yet, but starting to move around. That place of still being under but getting ready to awake. Like swimming deep underwater on the bottom of the dark ocean floor, submerged. Half my body feels dormant. While the other half feels of new life, 'young.'  Beginning to move out of this submerged state since being taken under in November. The past couple months have felt 'enclosed,' energetically. I still socialize, I love people, interacting with them. The extrovert part of me can't resist! But I have felt very introverted, spiritually. Climbing deep within. A self imposed dive inward without intending to, have been following this energy of exile. To fight and resist it would be painful. A serious practice of surrendering, letting go, and trusting. Becoming more free of emotional ties to people, places, things, dear ones. It has led me into a deep love.  Moments of being in total love with myself, life, everything and everyone, pure states of loving bliss have deepened and increased. Learning about impersonal love and personal love free from the creations of fear. Transforming into something that is on its way. A new way of being. Becoming a stronger beacon of love, compassion and Truth. Sensing February/March, this new flower of awareness continues to bloom.